hello everyone, i'm finally back.
you know i would be and that i would never forsake this space for this space has served its purpose dutifully, as a medium where i've left my revelations and my thoughts behind.
i've decided not to insert the 'archives' column anymore when i changed my blogskin cause i thought one should only look forward.
life's haven't been good cause new problem arises when the old ones have yet to be solved.
i'm feeeling pretty wasted and pretty disturbed by these issues.
argh, not a good feeling at all.

recently, i've been hanging out quite a lot with a group of pretty new friends.
i didn't just get to know them for a few days, but rather, months.
hanging out and conversations were interesting, without a doubt.
there is certainly differences between us in terms of preferences and all but i didn't think that it was an issue until these few days when conversations started getting insulting.
i certainly understand myself more than anybody would, and no one is in position to tell me who i am, what i am and how i should behave.
i've made myself clear that i have no qualms with you guys but that doesn't mean that i am one of you guys.
to me, it's not a grave issue to be like this but please, spare me from the wraths when i don't need anyone to determine who i am.
from that, it just makes you guys similar to any others suckers out there.
i'm really pissed off and disappointed with what i'm facing right now.
it's like i've dropped to the lowest point from the highest point.

the issues that was bothering me a few posts back haven't been resolved at all, but instead, things have almost reached a point beyond salvation.
i admitted that i was rash but i just needed something impactful and to make my stand clear.
i'm not going to give up without putting on a fight.
i just don't get the reasons that are right in my face now.
don't tell me you're putting in a lot of effort when things just doesn't seem that way.
it's all about sacrifice.
i am certainly disappointed for giving so much and getting nothing but empty promises in return.
as the cliche quote goes, it takes two hands to clap.
it doesn't help when i'm always the only one trying.
i've really tried my best and if things doesn't work out, i should have no regrets at all.
it's a waste that something like this has to happen.

someone please pull me out of this stage.